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Warning to Lovers

She kept glancing at her phone. Hand shaking, heart pounding, praying for a text. Or a phone call. Anything. 7:53 p.m. on February 14 and she was alone. Resting her woes and sorrows upon his unsteady heart, she places the last of her self-respect on the cellphone’s screen as she types “please, just come see me.” This girl is smart. This girl is beautiful. This girl could have the world spinning on her index finger like a globetrotter trick. But this girl depends on others for the satisfaction of her most vulnerable desire; love. She met him a while ago, but after the last guy broke her heart, she was hopeful this new one would mend her wounds and fade her scars. Isn’t it strange how we try so hard for love that we lose it? We lose the love we have for ourselves in the process of trying to love someone else. We forget we are the only ones who can control the internal love that keeps us breathing. Self-love and self-respect have become long lost characteristics which have become a product instead of an action. We think by gaining an intimate connection, our love and respect for ourselves will skyrocket. But what happens when we lose love? Our love for ourselves plummets? She used to be full of life. She would count stars just to see if astronomers missed one. Read endless books because her heart had a yearning for learning. Then, she fell for him. Face first forgetting to place her arms out front. So caught up in the love, she began losing herself. Gradually, her yearning for learning was replaced with the burning she felt when he wasn’t responding. Instead of counting stars, she was counting the number of minutes since the last time she called him. We have a responsibility to love ourselves above all else. A need to respect ourselves in order to prevent dangerous relapses. Self-love and self-respect should not require equilibrium. They should be a constant; the control in this experiment we call life. The moment we begin relying on someone else for our internal needs, we become incapable of love.

-Steph

Marathon TV.

So we are fully into the ‘brrrrrr’ version of the Olympic tradition that no one really cares about except the Canadians a few Scandinavian countries a smattering of a few others and of course the gung-ho USA team which believes in miracles. As a kid I used to watch mainly the ice skating when the UK had Torville and Dean the best ice-dance champions to grace the rink. Apart from that not much of anything unless the other two or three channels on the TV were crap (it was the 70’s). The Winter Olympics started in 1924 after a bunch of Euros decided it would be best to show off their skills on the white stuff. The latest installment of this once every four years ice-cream headache is a little bit overblown for me. I guess it could be because the place itself isn’t finished in construction and it just highlights the corruption and profiteering that comes with it. I really don’t want to see Vladimir Putin’s bare naked chest unless it’s being used to skate on. Of course personal stories of self-sacrifice, determination, and dedication abound, but to me unless they ( the athletes) come from Jamaica ( as in ‘cool runnings’ bob sled team) or somewhere there is no snow I don’t get caught up in the ‘feel good’ garbage. After-all most people who can afford to ski on a regular basis don’t seem to be on my ‘most favoured’ list. So with all this hype it is my most fervent hope that Russia finish about fifth and the USA lose the ice-hockey, which would be nice unless they play Russia but only for the Bronze.

-TDB.

A Poet's Funeral

The only music louder

Than the grieving mothers

Lonely muses

And broken brothers

Are the cash registers

Chimming in the eyes of publishers

People wanting to invest

In your death

Use your ejection from this world

To sky rocket your work

To new heights

When I leave

Kill me

Tell my little brother or sister

Anything not legally tied down

Is theirs to sing

Innovate the voice

Mimicking my heroes gave me

Hijack the drive I found

Desperately trying to find

Worth in myself

If I lived the last part

Of my life right

I won't have any material possessions

Just spiritual

Tell them to relax when they hear me

I'm not a ghost or a demon

Just the same boy

Trying to be glad the man

My older brother is

Tell my muses not to cry

That I loved them just as much

As day one

Still drunk off of my complete

Surprise

Of beauty like them

Even looking at a guy like me

Despite what anyone thinks

Love and sex

Were always my favorite drugs

I don't think I would have

Humored this life as long

Without them

To my friends

Like we ever need a fucken reason

But hey

Here's one to raise it

Let our glass or mug

Defy gravity

Don't speak of me

Or how much you spent

Buying my broke ass drinks

Or how many times

You had to carry me in

Clean me up

Hold me

Comfort me

Wipe the dead from my face

Instead

Let's talk about you

How you made this rock

Feel like it was alive

How you made real life

Feel like a dream sometimes

Why you were up

Just as late at night

And I will still

Be wondering why

We can't meet up

And pour it all out over the table

I know my family ties

And friendship can be fickle at times

I was just always a day dreamer

Chasing after my own heart

When I opened my mind

I don't care

If the world thinks well of me

I do hope they keep their mouth

Shut about it

Because with my friends and family

Don't know how to pull punches

When life has already pushed them

One step closer to spending rent

On a mute button

For the way they think

We think so much

We love so hard

I really don't think

We're even human anymore

This connection we have

Is something holy

Like a roll

I would drunk dial woman

But I would drop and write god

Love letters with my soul

I feel that connection

With all of you

And I hope you know

Even when I'm gone or ghostI'll still wake your ass up

In the middle of the night

Early morning

Make you reach for that pen

Open that drawer

Pull out that picture

Don't freak out

Don't second guess

Just write

Feel out loud

I didn't leave any of you

I'm just chasing my heart

Into the clouds

-DCR

February 14, 2014

Protesting Sochi

I haven’t put much energy Or effort into watching The Olympics this year, But maybe that’s because I didn’t like the politics. Maybe it’s because It was not practically thought out. Maybe it’s because It cost more than going to Mars Several times. I don’t understand Why Sochi is jumping through hoops But not respecting Political correctness. The intertwined hoops Show a unity, A shared global understanding And a mission To represent the best Our beautiful world Has to offer, But instead, It’s showing us how unprepared Sochi was for their million dollar project. I may not know who wins The winter Olympics this year, In any event, But I wonder if they feel Privileged, Appreciated. To be the top of the world Doing what they love, Why shouldn’t they have every opportunity? Regardless of their country, Gender, Sexual orientation, Or whether or not They are communist or socialist Or capitalist. They are just people. Extraordinary people. They deserve better than the best, Because that’s who these athletes are. Why take away their chances To literally be out of this world Just to host a sub-par competition In a country that clearly was not ready For the challenge.

-Seraphine the Poet

(.... unsure ....)

 

This is all I see these days …

…a lot of smoke and mirrors and more shots and a few what the fucks lost to time and busted condoms. This is normalcy weather, you can rain cap your way through the storm or you can learn the dance of it.

Butterfly kisses and bird flu.

Bra’s being strapped for cash and men who look more like a faded check stub than something to be proud of. Words are a lot like orgasms, you can never take them back.

No matter how hard you try.

 

Late Night

skylight eyes

look a lot

like the heart

dropped out

of your own

boycott boxer

briefs bottoms.

 

Your mouth didn’t

stand for anything

so it fell

on a lot

of things

 

You said there’s a plot hidden in every woman's pelvis

I didn’t believe you as much as you did.

-CP Maze

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